Karma?

When I was younger, I loved christmas... but then, what kid doesn't?

But now, all I can see is the reality...

We spend so much money trying to show people that you care (do they not realize throughout the other 364 days?)

We spend hours preparing food, less than an hour consuming and the rest of the year trying to work it off.

I know it's the togetherness that's meant to make it all worth it. Seeing the family that you don't see often.

But it's different now...

My family is far away, and my friends are all growing up and moving away... overseas, and even though there are people around, I still feel a bit alone.

So now, when I should be wrapping presents and decorating the tree, I'm man down, can't leave the house kind of sick.

Is this karma, for not getting properly involved in the usual christmas process, getting excited etc?

Is it karma for saying that I don't really like christmas because it just reminds me how far apart we all are?

Or is it just a fluke?

Hoping to stop sniffeling,

Dreaming of Daisy Fields

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