Yes, No, Maybe. I'm not really sure...

Having a relaxed relationship is great. There's no pressure regarding who's going to pop out the L word first, where it's going. There's a sort of 'what will be will be' air, and it's quite refreshing.

However, it also sucks. I'm feeling like a cliche'd, naggy girl. Unable to express my happiness for you, when deep down I'm overflowing with excitement. I don't WANT to have THAT conversation. I don't WANT to know where this is going or where it's going to end up. But I'm scared. I'm having so much fun!!! And the thought of going away freaks me out beyond compare.

I'm not the kind of girl to say no to an opportunity for love, I hope onto a certain HOPE that it'll all work out regardless, but still...

Being a grown up is not all it's cracked up to be.... How do I make it stop? :) I want to just play mermaids in the pool and not think about where I'm headed and where I'm going to be in 6 months time.

Wishing for fairies to tell me what to do,

Dreaming of daisy fields...

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